Tales of the torture stick

My clarinet, my love, my torture stick. I had my first lesson of the semester Tuesday. I've been playing it for a year and a half, yet I still squeak. Why? Because Cerebral Palsy effects my fine motor skills, mostly in the left hand and I am not always able to cover the holes completely, producing a shrill, ear piercing squeak in place of a beautiful high C.

Just one of the frustrations of an amateur clarinetist who happens to have CP.